Even my art is bigger than me

Today i spent the day photographing work so it started off as smaller pieces, fair enough, then to moderatly larger pieces such as

that only takes me standing up with my camera right above my head to photograph this but it suddenly turned into these monsters!

which is taller than me, 3 of me side ways and takes 5 minutes to pin up and its a collection of 3 so after the swearing putting these beats up but the winner was the on my poor sister had to hold for me

Little bit of info; my younger sister is 5'10 where as i am being 2 years older is 5'4 so when i hold work up its funny when she holds it up its ridiculous.

Which leads me to think why the fuck do i keep making art that i know im too small for? and why do i always argue with myself when putting it up when i created it? pointless self arguments!


i also got all my work in 2 boxes and 4 folders! good bye art!

Do you like eye patches?

Because if you do i think  that i may have the perfect idea for you! 


This will be my slogan when my eye patch project takes off and loads of people want one and ill have my own production line for  eye patch makers.


But so far Ive had A idea being one idea so far for my project.


So far i need at least ten people so i can take at least 30 pictures and to then make my 1st collage or set of collage and i mean two of us will be undertaking the project the original holder of the 1st patch and yes it should be a count of nine because i always believe that the artist should take part in the art not recruit others and no take part themselves.


SO here is the official facebook event for the 1st run but we will see how my career goes as a proper artist at 21!  The 1st adventure!
https://www.facebook.com/events/411592555542007/


or to see what the project is originally about read a prior blog which is;

http://metaphoricalsituation.blogspot.co.uk/2012/05/when-plan-comes-together-it-doesnt-half.html

Dorian Grey has nothing on me.

I was thinking about this at the start of the week and i saw it on my news feed something similar, not entirely but yeah along the same lines slightly. ill reference anyways! I also don't know what my point is yet but im sure something will turn up or it will be as pointless as I'm thinking it is.. 


awesome blog!
http://sewthecity.blogspot.co.uk

i have had some hair colours in my day, and it hasn't stop i recently went from blonde to purple. i really do miss the blonde it almost hurts. 


But lets start old school, and Ive barely aged since i left school so these are not photoshopped im just Dorian Grey bittttches.

At school i had two types of hair dye orange and red, and alternated from one to the other every week. I'm not even sure what it said about me but know my hair ended up the most awful orange shade
but i was actually 17 not that i could pass for it with bright orange hair which did continue onto my college days as such;

BAM! yes there we have it. it got brighter and brighter till i did end up bright ginger then i ended up fire red which can i add i personally think i started i took such slander as "period head" now everyone red thank you very much. Even here at 18/19 i don't think that i look all that older and  i do think it was bright hair that cause this because well all em young ones had it. But like everything the red took its damage and well this happened; 

Brown. Being a darker colour did change what my hair said about me it said i was generally a little more mature and as such i was given a little more consideration it also made me look my age or so i think minus the cat women tshirt i think.. but no good thing last and this what happens;

Aged 20.

BLONDE. blonde doesn't effect anything its like adding white to paint it simply added tone to my dyeless hair.  But now its purple and much darker so i have a pale face. 

But as a little conclusion to my very pointless blog, my hair dye says nothing about me its just makes my friends put me and hair dye together some people do it and some people don't it also does not help my age.. as i have never aged since i was 17 thanks to the use of red hair dye. this is where it all started at 15 and its also a dedication to Golda Evans my biggest fan <3

2006 Red and black!

2009? how things have changed. a past from the past

Well today I'm writing hypothetical, my best friend phoned me today in the process of waking me up and reminding me its was my ex boyfriends birthday and that's old blah blah blah then he realised they were the same age. what.a.dick.
Its also quite relevant to my first art task of the summer a picture collage. love it.


which again made me think again about my old art because generally i make about people in my life. WHEN AND THIS IS DAMN OLD.


My HNC work ah yes i loved my hnc work.

This my readers is my monster. Its 3ft tall and 2 ft wide. 

Originally it as a nice piece and by piece i mean it was pretty bloody morbid then now its even more morbid.

Originally it was about the little struggles in relationships, partner relationships, friends, family and best friends.

it has a thorn bush running through it relating the people and starts with friends to boyfriends, friends and family. and how none of them are easy but most survive! it also says in German "everyone has something to hide."

irony.

But my readers that was 2009. YES a whole 3 years ago. now a little more sensible and less patient with idiots its now means to me the after breakdown of relationships.

SO now in 2012 it now  means friends that have left, what once was love and romance and rubbish like that is now   "feck run hide there's my ex boyfriend." so really i just see it as a break down and growing up and apart from people.

I'm scared I've offended people that can see them self's in my monster which is my joy! 

so 

i was then thinking about collage and how i use it every day life without even noticing. I like to keep things to remember  because i hate forgetting. so this is a personal peak into my wall!

This my wall at home its placed on purpose. so what is on my wall?


Gigs; the blackout, mcfly, the all American rejects, phantom of the opera, young guns, my passion, panic at the disco, Dylan Moran and charlie Simpson.


There is art work; prints from my HND, and Edinburgh print makers, work from Stirling.


There is also random pictures Ive drew of been given a cool strawberry by a guy in my class, one from a baby shower and many things from exhibitions Ive been too.


and a few things from my time in Norway


ALSO baby pictures cause i was cute.as.fuck. only human.


 This is relevant because this is stuff that is important to me and things i want to remember art trips with unwilling friends, gigs with my best friend, dates at the cinema and business cards from contacts i must remember.


This is my happy collage and i will even keep added then put it in a box when it gets too much!

When a plan comes together it doesnt half look good.

Yesterday i got a massive bulk of work done give or take i had a 6 hour shift making the hungover public a cure then 3 children to babysit till 2am but still i carried on my work what a champ i am.


But a 3d piece has finally came together so going on 
          "body dysmorphic disorder"


I have created a set of 12 masks which highlight the issue they are brightly coloured using silk fibers mouled over mask then sewn into with PVA to coat them to make them less fragile.


I originally though that i would use more neutral colours such as whites and pastels so it wasn't that nutral but after some imagery work shown that they didn't make an impact like bright colours did due to the conclusion i came to which was that this issue is hidden to using pastels and dull backs up it almost being taboo and being kept just to what we think in our head so by using the bright colours it is showing the issue in its simplistic form whilst making them the main vocal point of view and discussion. 


This was my intention taking a well known subject we know not a lot about which is also personally to each person and showing it simply.

But relating back to brief that was given; how indeed does this all relate to transformation. The whole idea is that the chemical reaction in the brain when you look in the mirror is the transformation for all you might think that you have a monster nose in actual fact you probably do not.

This is the transformation side; the transformation in image from what is there psychically to what you see mentally.

But Kirsten how to masks come into this theory?

well taking the mental and adding something as simple as a mask or make up or a hat to cover up what we want to change is a way of covering up the chemical reaction change to make ourselves feel secure and not so anxious about what we see. 

Day 5; Photo-grams and Doctor Satan

3D piece completed. All that it needs is the final two pieces added on to the front to create what is meant to resemble the image of a cut for a scrapbook made by the more obsessively know sufferers of the disorder.


At first i thought of recreating a magazine but then i thought that would not work as effectively but this seemed like an option as it would be seen as something accessible to anyone but it seemed a lot more personal. Like it was something to be hidden or added to.


This seems like something most people could relate to because there's something that everyone doesn't like about  themselves and if they could change it they would. This is not always possible though. It just seemed pretty relevant to whats been in the news and written about.


Just a hell a load of sketch book work to do now 80% of this project now finished which is coming up to the end before summer!


On a much lighter note, relating art to film and popular culture! "house of 1000 corpses" which is a Rob Zombie Production which contains a lot of there own costumes and work. And a lot of psychos,pretty fantastic. 

Who pressed drafts instead of post! i did

Well one a day went well. Pressing preview then not saving loosing a whole blog cannot even remeber what i was blogging about.  Wednesday! what did i do art related on Wednesday apart from having a meeting with a summer client which went horribly i started looking into my essay. 

My English is god awful how I've got over 50+ views on 4 days is beyond me, about 15 views a day, not bad and my maths is even worse than my English i may be dyed blonde but its always been questioned to if i was a natural.

In my essay, (which I'm trying to get my head around!) I think I'm writing about the connotations of ownership. Say you own a original Andy Warhol RARE! but it has happened. and you know not alot about art what connotations what that have to you?? would it be something to brag about putting something that puts you like your better than the common man? sounds harsh but this is quite an extreme case would it change you personality towards people who don't have a rare piece but the Warhol?

I think this is what I'm writing about. my notes say

"Art = people. personality. lifestyle.

Capitalism

Comerial. Purchased. Owned. Displaced. Misunderstood.

Pleasure of text. Mythology

Use of aesthetics in art"

that was day three on day 4.

Now day 4! 

day 4 was fun i took over my class. this is do with my organisational skills, which aren't great this commonly know I'm my group of friends, I'm late for life, dates pop out my head i have 567890 to do lists which say all the same thing so today with my cold. my terrible cold. which means Ive been sniffing and coughing all day BUT I POWERED THROUGH YES I STAYED ALL DAY.

so i had itunes on with 5 other stations, one for cutting, one for my  pro-marker children, a table for my tiny PC, a window for drying cardboard, also a table for paper work and a table for cutting!

this was one of the more productive days of life! 

What a good day i had!

Day two; What shade would you wear?

Today was a good day i have 5 finished pieces, 3 are drying which means my room is now totally stank out.


These are for my transformation brief which is 2/3 finished,  just a cover to be put on the 2D piece.
Thank god! 


I have created a series of silk paper masks which relate to the theory i have come up with. 


these masks represent the different faces that can be shown to cover what we don't want to be seen, it is individuality to the person and doesn't have to be as obvious as shown but making it simple and purely abstract to show what masks do clearly!


this will be shown as a series which will be photographed hopefully using more than one person if its arranged correctly. 

Day one; Small artists should not have large sketchbooks

Day one.


so far in this long day i have made two final pieces which just have to be photographed in environment, or atmosphere to explain fully what it meant by these.


Go Me! no.


you would think this would be amazing i have one more piece to finish which will take an hour
and thats one project is done! but i use smaller sketch books for a reason.


1. There train sized; whenever i am traveling which is a lot i like to bring out my bag sized sketchbooks not a monster that is 1/3 the size of me.


2. The page size scares me and how on earth am i going to fill this monster.  which takes ten times longer when id rather have two FULL small sketchbooks.


3. i look ridiculous holding them and as my best friend told me i look like 
     
            "a personal assistant to the jolly green giant"


4. MY WRITING IS TINY. This is the main reason to why i don't like massive sketchbooksnot only is my work never huge my writing is small and gets drowned in these sketchbooks.


Think im kidding? here is my evidence.

the top picture may look okay writing wise but that because
it explains three theory's in deep research style that is so detailed
that it just needed to be retyped.


Then the typical outcome of most my large sketchbook work.
Research; i  go into 3 different levels of deep so these three pages 
of work are backed up by 6-12 pages of research i had made into a 
book so it doesn't clutter up my book.




Thats day one, my annoyance at being unable to fill up a A2 sketchbook and why.






                                      

HERMIT HERMIT HERMIT

HERMIT.

I think my last post was the 29th of January.. i would say there is an interesting excuse to
this, there's no i just never found much interesting to write about or something i thought was
interesting.

first of all, the new layout is god awful and i'm not feeling it.
second this is Hermit month where the work mounts up, the pressure builds, life
choices have to be made and you end up turning to pro plus to stay awake.

As this blog is reflective, i should reflect.

where to start, for one project i have to create a 3D and 2D piece using the theme of
TRANSFORMATION! this theme is quite vastly used and has so many connotations to it.
plants
bugs
people
ect
ect
ect

So decided on the theme of body dysmorphic disorder, the transformation from what is psychically
and what is actually being thought mentally.
i think this is quite relevant to what is going on and something that can be related and
can be translated easily to anyone viewing it the finish product.

The aim of this week is to blog at least once a day about random arty stuff or even what
iv'e done in the day ill figure it out on the day, with the very boring

"Week challenge; Day -insert number-"